Sunday, October 02, 2005

Finding Our Way...

I graduate in December.
- I'm not sure where I'll work and I'll thank you for not looking at me funny because you think I'm not prepared.
I can't wait to get married and eventually start a family.
- Thanks for not giving a sympathetic nod and thinking, "Ok, but what do you REALLY want to do?"
I WILL write a book someday about educating teachers and Promiseland type leaders alike to minister to 'the difficult kids'.
- And don't say, "Oh, look, you're following in your Dad's footsteps!" Hmph, yeah, but I don't pretend to be Church Lady, do I? I'm making MY OWN footsteps.
I want to start a business that trains child care centers, churches and one day SCHOOLS to help their 'difficult kids'.
- Yes, I will be a female entrepreneur, and I'll be a frickin' good one at that.
I think I might either go to Law School and study Child and Family Law, or get my Master's in Clinical Therapy, a.k.a. helping
little ones and their 'rents.
- Haha, damn straight I want to go to law school, you read that right...
I want to dance at least one more time for a professional sports team, Broadway show, or music video.
- I DID learn a lesson with Luvabulls, but nobody dare say, "Didn't you learn YOUR lesson?" HA! That was one of the hardest
things I did (quitting), and you'd better believe I learned A lesson...
I want a purse dog.
- Get over it :-)
I want everyone to see ME for ME: my love for others; my healthy obsession with Disney World and caramel apples; my sense of humor; my fragileness; my understated awkwardness; my eloquent speaking style (when I choose to engage it!); my love for sleeping in one day a week; my commitment to things and people I adore; my interesting way of being over-committed yet normally being ok with that; my desire to do to good for and love others any and all the time; my obsession with caramel macchiatos and shaken passion iced tea from Starbucks; my pretended hatred for school even though I've realized I don't really mind it; my loooove for gerbera daisies; my love for the girls in my small group!; my allegiance and committment to (and, truly, obsession with) the kids in the Friday HG; my love for presents, really, of any kind; my love for my FAMILY- our sarcasms, our humor, our undying passion and allegiance for one another, our Dad being the #1 leader and protector and Mom being the coolest friend and mediator, and Ryan being brave enough to go to frickin' France for a semeter and SKOOGE! being the most human stuffed animal dog on the face of the planet- and finally, my love for God and the life He's given me; it may be unconventional, unprecedented, typical, and even immature... but I'm grateful and in awe and reverent and humbled that I'd be so blessed...

I want others to know that about me and to know that I pray for that for them.

2 comments:

dbrown said...

That was beautifully written. Well done Ms. Poling.

Anna said...

Why thank you Mr. Brown... now if only we could schedule time for our girl talk, all would be right with the world :-)