March 5th

I just realized when I wrote that date that it will take on a totally different meaning than I intended. Woah. You are reading my surprise as I am experiencing it right now.

I originally wanted to let the masses (all 12 of you who read this) know that March 5th is our big fundraiser half-time show for the Rush (www.chicagorush.com) and I would love for any and all of you to come. Tickets are center field and are $20. Please let me know ASAP if you can come as we have to order these discounted tix by next Wednesday.

That was my original post.

As I wrote it, however, I realized that many people view that as Laurie's date of death, even though we are now fairly certain it was March 2nd. I guess for many of us, that will be added to the list of "I'll never forget where I was when _____ happened". I was at the Super-Sectional Pom competition, trying to motivate the team of girls I coached while getting calls and updates about what exactly happened. I know a fairly powerful man in the media industry who's T.V. channel was one of the first to announce when her body was located. I heard it before it was on the news, but I'm sure not before the other family members. I was shocked. I was heartbroken. I was confused. I felt unworthy of those emotions, yet I could not get rid of them.

I wonder how I'll feel this year as I'm dancing center field...