Tomorrow night.
Tuesday, November 1st.
Starts at 10:30pm central time.
NBC.
Jay Leno.
The Tonight Show.
Ben Greeno.
The love of my life.
The Redwalls.
It's starting, people.
Bring it on.
Monday, October 31, 2005
Monday, October 24, 2005
Tagged... Idiot.
And now I've been tagged by Mr. Drew Brown... so y'all can deal with it... especially those who are gonna be tagged by ME :-) Hehehehehe
20 Random Things about Anna
1) My middle name is May and it's a family name.
2) The first thing my Dad said when I was born is, "She looks like my Mom and Sister!" Welcome, little one, welcome.
3) My dog's name, Skooge, was found in the phone book.
4) I was on Cheerleading in High School because I promised a friend I'd try out just to help her. I made it. She didn't. Oops.
5) I was a Top-All American Pom in high school which is actually a really big honor and kinda hard to achieve.
6) I dance for the Adrenaline Rush (Chicago Rush Arena Football) and used to be LuvaBull (Chicago Bulls).
7) I'm totally procrastinating on my Stats homework by doing this survey.
8) I have a lustful relationship with caramel apples.
9) I have an unhealthy obsession with Disney World because I worked there.
10) Sometimes I feel like I peaked at 22, and am worried about cool things I'll do in the future.
11) I can't wait to get married and be a Mom.
12) I like bump and grind muuuusic. I love to blast it in my car, especially when I'm alone.
13) I'm somewhat self conscious more than I probably should be.
14) Benjamin Thomas Greeno is my favorite person, an amazing musician, and my bestest friend ever. I love him so, so much.
15) I'm deathly allergic to cats and break out in hives if I even touch someone who has even a little cat hair on their person.
16) I'm an executive assistant to the wife of the President of Channel Two... say that 5 times fast.
17) I'm obsessed with little kids; I think they are fascinating and brilliant and worth every moment of time and every inch of their needs. If we as humans have nothing else in common, EVERYONE has been a child at one point... that's pretty powerful.
18) I was really stupid with $$ in college and am in a pretty stupid amount of debt because of it.
19) My parents are hilarious and still have sex. Strangely enough, I'm proud of that because it means there's hope for old people. Not that my parents are old, and not that I want to know WHEN they have sex, it's just inspiring.
20) I'm pretty sure I'm gonna get shite for that last comment.
I TAG...
K*Jacks, C*Dawg, Eve, Katie, and LIZard
20 Random Things about Anna
1) My middle name is May and it's a family name.
2) The first thing my Dad said when I was born is, "She looks like my Mom and Sister!" Welcome, little one, welcome.
3) My dog's name, Skooge, was found in the phone book.
4) I was on Cheerleading in High School because I promised a friend I'd try out just to help her. I made it. She didn't. Oops.
5) I was a Top-All American Pom in high school which is actually a really big honor and kinda hard to achieve.
6) I dance for the Adrenaline Rush (Chicago Rush Arena Football) and used to be LuvaBull (Chicago Bulls).
7) I'm totally procrastinating on my Stats homework by doing this survey.
8) I have a lustful relationship with caramel apples.
9) I have an unhealthy obsession with Disney World because I worked there.
10) Sometimes I feel like I peaked at 22, and am worried about cool things I'll do in the future.
11) I can't wait to get married and be a Mom.
12) I like bump and grind muuuusic. I love to blast it in my car, especially when I'm alone.
13) I'm somewhat self conscious more than I probably should be.
14) Benjamin Thomas Greeno is my favorite person, an amazing musician, and my bestest friend ever. I love him so, so much.
15) I'm deathly allergic to cats and break out in hives if I even touch someone who has even a little cat hair on their person.
16) I'm an executive assistant to the wife of the President of Channel Two... say that 5 times fast.
17) I'm obsessed with little kids; I think they are fascinating and brilliant and worth every moment of time and every inch of their needs. If we as humans have nothing else in common, EVERYONE has been a child at one point... that's pretty powerful.
18) I was really stupid with $$ in college and am in a pretty stupid amount of debt because of it.
19) My parents are hilarious and still have sex. Strangely enough, I'm proud of that because it means there's hope for old people. Not that my parents are old, and not that I want to know WHEN they have sex, it's just inspiring.
20) I'm pretty sure I'm gonna get shite for that last comment.
I TAG...
K*Jacks, C*Dawg, Eve, Katie, and LIZard
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
Insecure.
That word bothers me. Insecure. Shouldn't it mean we are IN SECURITY? Like, it security surrounds us?
Well, I certainly know I'M not feeling very surrounded.
Why do we get depressed when we are sick? I lose track of my normal schedule, I fall behind, and then I feel like I'm never going to catch up. I'm quick to become emotional and therefore quick to be offended or worse, offend. I miss my friends terribly, feel like a horrible friend for not staying in touch better with those whom I love dearly, and yet again am stressed because 'staying in touch' is one more thing I am definitely NOT on top of.
Screw Statistics homework... I need a nap. Oh wait, I took one and felt guilty because I'm so far behind on everything.
Tears overwhelm those whom I need hugs from the most. How do I explain I'm insecure because I know I'm acting insecure even though I'm pretty sure I'm not insecure most of the time, but fear and insecurity still lurk into my everyday? Does that even make sense?
And when, oh when, do I stop living in fear of the past? When do things stop triggering a fear that was instilled in me previously, even though there is no grounds for that fear now other than the memory of it? Is it fair to hold someone accountable for pain they caused even though they would drop the world for you now? Is if fair to still be scared?
I love my tears. I don't think I over-react. At least not most of the time.
Every single muscle in my body aches from last Saturday. I have projects to do, midterms to study for, clothes to clean, friends to call.
All I want to do now is sleep.
Well, I certainly know I'M not feeling very surrounded.
Why do we get depressed when we are sick? I lose track of my normal schedule, I fall behind, and then I feel like I'm never going to catch up. I'm quick to become emotional and therefore quick to be offended or worse, offend. I miss my friends terribly, feel like a horrible friend for not staying in touch better with those whom I love dearly, and yet again am stressed because 'staying in touch' is one more thing I am definitely NOT on top of.
Screw Statistics homework... I need a nap. Oh wait, I took one and felt guilty because I'm so far behind on everything.
Tears overwhelm those whom I need hugs from the most. How do I explain I'm insecure because I know I'm acting insecure even though I'm pretty sure I'm not insecure most of the time, but fear and insecurity still lurk into my everyday? Does that even make sense?
And when, oh when, do I stop living in fear of the past? When do things stop triggering a fear that was instilled in me previously, even though there is no grounds for that fear now other than the memory of it? Is it fair to hold someone accountable for pain they caused even though they would drop the world for you now? Is if fair to still be scared?
I love my tears. I don't think I over-react. At least not most of the time.
Every single muscle in my body aches from last Saturday. I have projects to do, midterms to study for, clothes to clean, friends to call.
All I want to do now is sleep.
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Caught Off Guard...
That's how I felt Saturday afternoon as I walked into Katie's house... perhaps it was because I'd never officially met her or her kids, or maybe it was that I'd never been to their home. But as I walked in, Katie's smiling face took my breath away as I saw a piece of Laurie in her... seconds later I noticed on all the wonderful "Sister" pics ontop of her TV... about a dozen pics of Laurie, Katie, Kristin, and Mrs. Barb. It was the first time I'd really SEEN Laurie since the funeral. I have pics here and there but (wonderfully) Katie's house was overflowing.
I wanted to say something, "Oh my gosh, you look like her!" or, "I love all the Laurie pictures", but nothing came out. And then Princess Maya walked over in her Belle shirt and Tu-Tu and said, "You're the princess, I want to see your pictures." Her precious little round face lit up just like her Aunt's used to as I tried to explain that, no, I don't actually LIVE in Disney World still... but I used to:) Eventually she figured out (after covering up the wig in the picture so you could only see my face) that I was in fact friends with Cinderella; we were so close, in fact, that she let me wear her ball gown when I lived in Florida :-)
Precious little Isaiah toddled over and just looked at me, then walked away. A few seconds later I was entertained with his new, "Mommy you're incredible" which sounded more like, "Moma u incwedible". Priceless.
And Denver, with all the excitement a 7 year old can muster explained that we'd be watching "The Adventures of Shark Boy and Lava Girl" later on, but first we should play some games.
The evening was so fun. Yes, a spinning chair flew out from under Maya and she got a fantastic bump (and Denver helped by grabbing a block of frozen cheese for her head!), yes we somehow managed to eat an entire bag of baby carrots between the 4 of us, yes we played soccer outside and Denver threatened to run away when we had to come in, and yes, we had a pajama pizza party while watching our movie; Isaiah DID fall asleep in his high chair while watching the movie (how can that be comfortable?), and yes, they actually went to bed (or at least upstairs) with little fuss... but what took my breath away, what stopped my heart were two things...
1. Maya caught me basically staring at a pic of Laurie and said, "That's Munch. She died because she wanted to, but she loves us very much. She's an angel now and she's in Heaven with God and her Daddy. She has no more body, just her spirit. It's not that she didn't love us, she just had to die." She looked at me to see if I comprehended and I said, "I know, Maya, Laurie was one of my friends, too" No words, no tears, she just ran into my arms and let me hug her.
2. I was praying in bed with Denver and Maya. I started out and then asked Denver and Maya to each pray. Maya prayed, "Dear God, take care of Munch because I miss her but you are her Dad now so help her be an angel tonight and give me good dreams." >insert lump in my throat< Denver continued, "Thank you for Anna because she played with us like Munch did and take care of Munch in Heaven for us." I hugged them goodnight, went and sat in the bathroom and for the first time in awhile, had a good cry...
I wanted to say something, "Oh my gosh, you look like her!" or, "I love all the Laurie pictures", but nothing came out. And then Princess Maya walked over in her Belle shirt and Tu-Tu and said, "You're the princess, I want to see your pictures." Her precious little round face lit up just like her Aunt's used to as I tried to explain that, no, I don't actually LIVE in Disney World still... but I used to:) Eventually she figured out (after covering up the wig in the picture so you could only see my face) that I was in fact friends with Cinderella; we were so close, in fact, that she let me wear her ball gown when I lived in Florida :-)
Precious little Isaiah toddled over and just looked at me, then walked away. A few seconds later I was entertained with his new, "Mommy you're incredible" which sounded more like, "Moma u incwedible". Priceless.
And Denver, with all the excitement a 7 year old can muster explained that we'd be watching "The Adventures of Shark Boy and Lava Girl" later on, but first we should play some games.
The evening was so fun. Yes, a spinning chair flew out from under Maya and she got a fantastic bump (and Denver helped by grabbing a block of frozen cheese for her head!), yes we somehow managed to eat an entire bag of baby carrots between the 4 of us, yes we played soccer outside and Denver threatened to run away when we had to come in, and yes, we had a pajama pizza party while watching our movie; Isaiah DID fall asleep in his high chair while watching the movie (how can that be comfortable?), and yes, they actually went to bed (or at least upstairs) with little fuss... but what took my breath away, what stopped my heart were two things...
1. Maya caught me basically staring at a pic of Laurie and said, "That's Munch. She died because she wanted to, but she loves us very much. She's an angel now and she's in Heaven with God and her Daddy. She has no more body, just her spirit. It's not that she didn't love us, she just had to die." She looked at me to see if I comprehended and I said, "I know, Maya, Laurie was one of my friends, too" No words, no tears, she just ran into my arms and let me hug her.
2. I was praying in bed with Denver and Maya. I started out and then asked Denver and Maya to each pray. Maya prayed, "Dear God, take care of Munch because I miss her but you are her Dad now so help her be an angel tonight and give me good dreams." >insert lump in my throat< Denver continued, "Thank you for Anna because she played with us like Munch did and take care of Munch in Heaven for us." I hugged them goodnight, went and sat in the bathroom and for the first time in awhile, had a good cry...
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
Katie plays more fairer than Dreeeew!!!
Even though this is a weird game, I appreciate the gesture of inclusion from Katie.
I expected more from Drew.
Never the less, here is how the game goes:
THE RULES: List five songs that you are currently loving. It doesn't matter what genre they are from, whether they have words, or even if they're any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying right now. Post these instructions, the artists, and the songs in your blog. Then tag five other friends to see what they're listening to.
1. Held (Natalie Grant)- can't listen to it without crying yet feeling a sense of strength... like I survived (I think that's the point).
2. My Hump (Black Eyed Peas)- sad but true.
3. Love Her (The Redwalls)- duh. I love my man and his work.
4. Cannon in D (Pachebel)- all time favorite, and currently on repeat in my room stereo.
5. Diamonds are a Girls Best Friend (Marilyn Monroe)- it's my ringtone, and I still smile everytime someone calls:)
Ok now...
Drew (ha! that's for leaving me out)
Kristen Jack (welcome to the wonderful world reading my blogs:)
Jen Hayward (because I KNOW you just started your very own blog!)
Ben (because I'm mean like that)
Lizzard Lex (you need to update more often. Let me assist you in finding a new topic... wha... OH! Here you go!)
You're it!
I expected more from Drew.
Never the less, here is how the game goes:
THE RULES: List five songs that you are currently loving. It doesn't matter what genre they are from, whether they have words, or even if they're any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying right now. Post these instructions, the artists, and the songs in your blog. Then tag five other friends to see what they're listening to.
1. Held (Natalie Grant)- can't listen to it without crying yet feeling a sense of strength... like I survived (I think that's the point).
2. My Hump (Black Eyed Peas)- sad but true.
3. Love Her (The Redwalls)- duh. I love my man and his work.
4. Cannon in D (Pachebel)- all time favorite, and currently on repeat in my room stereo.
5. Diamonds are a Girls Best Friend (Marilyn Monroe)- it's my ringtone, and I still smile everytime someone calls:)
Ok now...
Drew (ha! that's for leaving me out)
Kristen Jack (welcome to the wonderful world reading my blogs:)
Jen Hayward (because I KNOW you just started your very own blog!)
Ben (because I'm mean like that)
Lizzard Lex (you need to update more often. Let me assist you in finding a new topic... wha... OH! Here you go!)
You're it!
Saturday, October 08, 2005
I Want Comments!!!
Ok so I know this is an online "journal" and if it were on paper, I highly doubt anyone would snatch it away and write comments on it, but now I have an actual question I want people to respond to.
So...
When you do decide enough is enough? When you are brought to tears? When your stress level makes you a candidate for tranquilizers? When you've given someone a chance over and over and yet they still make the same mistake and refuse to see why maybe, just maybe, THEY are wrong? Or does it come when you've tried to explain yourself to a friend and they can't grasp the concept that you are extremely complex and just want someone who can know that and love you inspite of it, yet they feel the need to either judge or fix you?
Speak, people, speak. Good bloggers...
So...
When you do decide enough is enough? When you are brought to tears? When your stress level makes you a candidate for tranquilizers? When you've given someone a chance over and over and yet they still make the same mistake and refuse to see why maybe, just maybe, THEY are wrong? Or does it come when you've tried to explain yourself to a friend and they can't grasp the concept that you are extremely complex and just want someone who can know that and love you inspite of it, yet they feel the need to either judge or fix you?
Speak, people, speak. Good bloggers...
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
Hows about a Survey?
Two postings in one day?!?! I'm bored, people...
10 years ago I was:
In middle school with braces and lanky legs.
Obsessed with "I'll Make Love to You" by Boyz II Men
Determined to be popular
5 years ago I was:
A Senior in high school and on Poms, V.P. of Student Council, playing a lead in Crazy for You, and majorly crushing on Ben with little hope for a return obsession (or so I thought).
Super into Before Today (ha!!!) Matchbox 20, The Ataris, Get Up Kids, New Found Glory, the song Faded and good dance songs with naughty lyrics. :-)
1 year ago I was:
Starting at Roosevelt University.
Dancing for the Bulls i.e. being a LuvaBull, aka LuvaSlut
Dislocating my knee and tearing my LCL. Thanks LuvaBulls
Dating and consequently breaking up with Adam. Sorry friend.
Realizing I was still in love with Ben
Being won back by Ben. Damn straight.
Yesterday I:
Went to physical therapy, school and the chiropractor.
Spent way to much money on clothes at Express.
Did absolutely no homework whatsoever.
Finshed b-day shopping for Ben (his birthday is this Thursday the 6th, by the way. CALL HIM!!!!)
Filling out cap and gown forms for GRADUATION!!!
5 songs I know all the words to:
"At Last" by Etta James
"Lullaby" by my Daddy
"Baby Got Back" by Sir Mix-a-Lot
"Love Her" by The Redwalls
"Held" by Natalie Grant
5 things I would do with 100 million dollars:
Buy my parents and Ry a house/addition, cars, and new clothes :-)
Donate a sh*tload to charities and churches
Get super-cool house that is new but looks like it's from the early 1900's (big with lots of rooms and staircases)
Adopt an internation child Angelina Jolie-style
Get lifetime season tix/a box to every major Chi-town sports team
5 places I would run away to:
Disney World
Palmer's House
New York
California
England
5 things I would never wear:
Super super huge bell-bottoms
MY personal underware on the outside of my clothing
Chainmail
A corset
Toe Socks (at least not anymore. Poor separated toes.)
5 favorite TV shows:
CSI: Las Vegas
Newlyweds: Nick and Jessica
The Simpsons
Lost
Grey's Anatomy
5 bad habits:
Twirling my hair
Junk Food
Giving my opinion before it's been asked of me
Being defensive
Forgetting to call people back
5 biggest joys:
Adorable little kids
Caramel Apples
Being surrounded by friends and family
Skooge falling asleep on my bed
DISNEY WORLD/Being Cinderella in SpectroMagic. Tear...
5 fictional characters I would date:
Jake Ryan from "Sixteen Candles" (Michael Schoeffling)
Oliver from "A Lot Like Love" (Ashton Kutcher)
Prince Phillip or Prince Charming from "Sleeping Beauty" and "Cinderella" (Bill Shirley and William Phipps- voices)
Noah Calhoun from "The Notebook" (Ryan Goesling)
Harry Potter from "The Goblet of Fire" (Daniel Radcliffe... so what if he's younger, he's frickin' adorable)
That about wraps it up, folks.
10 years ago I was:
In middle school with braces and lanky legs.
Obsessed with "I'll Make Love to You" by Boyz II Men
Determined to be popular
5 years ago I was:
A Senior in high school and on Poms, V.P. of Student Council, playing a lead in Crazy for You, and majorly crushing on Ben with little hope for a return obsession (or so I thought).
Super into Before Today (ha!!!) Matchbox 20, The Ataris, Get Up Kids, New Found Glory, the song Faded and good dance songs with naughty lyrics. :-)
1 year ago I was:
Starting at Roosevelt University.
Dancing for the Bulls i.e. being a LuvaBull, aka LuvaSlut
Dislocating my knee and tearing my LCL. Thanks LuvaBulls
Dating and consequently breaking up with Adam. Sorry friend.
Realizing I was still in love with Ben
Being won back by Ben. Damn straight.
Yesterday I:
Went to physical therapy, school and the chiropractor.
Spent way to much money on clothes at Express.
Did absolutely no homework whatsoever.
Finshed b-day shopping for Ben (his birthday is this Thursday the 6th, by the way. CALL HIM!!!!)
Filling out cap and gown forms for GRADUATION!!!
5 songs I know all the words to:
"At Last" by Etta James
"Lullaby" by my Daddy
"Baby Got Back" by Sir Mix-a-Lot
"Love Her" by The Redwalls
"Held" by Natalie Grant
5 things I would do with 100 million dollars:
Buy my parents and Ry a house/addition, cars, and new clothes :-)
Donate a sh*tload to charities and churches
Get super-cool house that is new but looks like it's from the early 1900's (big with lots of rooms and staircases)
Adopt an internation child Angelina Jolie-style
Get lifetime season tix/a box to every major Chi-town sports team
5 places I would run away to:
Disney World
Palmer's House
New York
California
England
5 things I would never wear:
Super super huge bell-bottoms
MY personal underware on the outside of my clothing
Chainmail
A corset
Toe Socks (at least not anymore. Poor separated toes.)
5 favorite TV shows:
CSI: Las Vegas
Newlyweds: Nick and Jessica
The Simpsons
Lost
Grey's Anatomy
5 bad habits:
Twirling my hair
Junk Food
Giving my opinion before it's been asked of me
Being defensive
Forgetting to call people back
5 biggest joys:
Adorable little kids
Caramel Apples
Being surrounded by friends and family
Skooge falling asleep on my bed
DISNEY WORLD/Being Cinderella in SpectroMagic. Tear...
5 fictional characters I would date:
Jake Ryan from "Sixteen Candles" (Michael Schoeffling)
Oliver from "A Lot Like Love" (Ashton Kutcher)
Prince Phillip or Prince Charming from "Sleeping Beauty" and "Cinderella" (Bill Shirley and William Phipps- voices)
Noah Calhoun from "The Notebook" (Ryan Goesling)
Harry Potter from "The Goblet of Fire" (Daniel Radcliffe... so what if he's younger, he's frickin' adorable)
That about wraps it up, folks.
Things I Lust That Have to do with Fall
1. Caramel Apples
2. Apple Cider
3. Halloween Decs- not witches and ghosts, but pumpkins, bales of hay, scarecrows, etc.
4. Apple Picking
5. Pumpkin Farms
6. Changing color of leaves and walks at Crabtree Nature Center
7. Cool weather
8. Cinderella being released on DVD!!!!!
9. Fall T.V. series kick-offs
10. Fall clothing sales
11. Caramel Apples
12. Trick-or-Treating little kids, especially the ones in strollers and huge, cute costumes their Mom's forced them in. So cute.
13. FOOTBALL
14. HOCKEY
15. Ben Greeno
16. Apple Pie
17. Pumpkin Spice and Caramel Apple Candles from White Barn Candle Co.
18. The beginnings of Christmas decs coming out (somewhat early if I may say; never the less, cheerful)
19. THANKSGIVING
20. Chicago from now until Christmas (but I'll post on Christmas Lustings later)
2. Apple Cider
3. Halloween Decs- not witches and ghosts, but pumpkins, bales of hay, scarecrows, etc.
4. Apple Picking
5. Pumpkin Farms
6. Changing color of leaves and walks at Crabtree Nature Center
7. Cool weather
8. Cinderella being released on DVD!!!!!
9. Fall T.V. series kick-offs
10. Fall clothing sales
11. Caramel Apples
12. Trick-or-Treating little kids, especially the ones in strollers and huge, cute costumes their Mom's forced them in. So cute.
13. FOOTBALL
14. HOCKEY
15. Ben Greeno
16. Apple Pie
17. Pumpkin Spice and Caramel Apple Candles from White Barn Candle Co.
18. The beginnings of Christmas decs coming out (somewhat early if I may say; never the less, cheerful)
19. THANKSGIVING
20. Chicago from now until Christmas (but I'll post on Christmas Lustings later)
Sunday, October 02, 2005
Finding Our Way...
I graduate in December.
- I'm not sure where I'll work and I'll thank you for not looking at me funny because you think I'm not prepared.
I can't wait to get married and eventually start a family.
- Thanks for not giving a sympathetic nod and thinking, "Ok, but what do you REALLY want to do?"
I WILL write a book someday about educating teachers and Promiseland type leaders alike to minister to 'the difficult kids'.
- And don't say, "Oh, look, you're following in your Dad's footsteps!" Hmph, yeah, but I don't pretend to be Church Lady, do I? I'm making MY OWN footsteps.
I want to start a business that trains child care centers, churches and one day SCHOOLS to help their 'difficult kids'.
- Yes, I will be a female entrepreneur, and I'll be a frickin' good one at that.
I think I might either go to Law School and study Child and Family Law, or get my Master's in Clinical Therapy, a.k.a. helping
little ones and their 'rents.
- Haha, damn straight I want to go to law school, you read that right...
I want to dance at least one more time for a professional sports team, Broadway show, or music video.
- I DID learn a lesson with Luvabulls, but nobody dare say, "Didn't you learn YOUR lesson?" HA! That was one of the hardest
things I did (quitting), and you'd better believe I learned A lesson...
I want a purse dog.
- Get over it :-)
I want everyone to see ME for ME: my love for others; my healthy obsession with Disney World and caramel apples; my sense of humor; my fragileness; my understated awkwardness; my eloquent speaking style (when I choose to engage it!); my love for sleeping in one day a week; my commitment to things and people I adore; my interesting way of being over-committed yet normally being ok with that; my desire to do to good for and love others any and all the time; my obsession with caramel macchiatos and shaken passion iced tea from Starbucks; my pretended hatred for school even though I've realized I don't really mind it; my loooove for gerbera daisies; my love for the girls in my small group!; my allegiance and committment to (and, truly, obsession with) the kids in the Friday HG; my love for presents, really, of any kind; my love for my FAMILY- our sarcasms, our humor, our undying passion and allegiance for one another, our Dad being the #1 leader and protector and Mom being the coolest friend and mediator, and Ryan being brave enough to go to frickin' France for a semeter and SKOOGE! being the most human stuffed animal dog on the face of the planet- and finally, my love for God and the life He's given me; it may be unconventional, unprecedented, typical, and even immature... but I'm grateful and in awe and reverent and humbled that I'd be so blessed...
I want others to know that about me and to know that I pray for that for them.
- I'm not sure where I'll work and I'll thank you for not looking at me funny because you think I'm not prepared.
I can't wait to get married and eventually start a family.
- Thanks for not giving a sympathetic nod and thinking, "Ok, but what do you REALLY want to do?"
I WILL write a book someday about educating teachers and Promiseland type leaders alike to minister to 'the difficult kids'.
- And don't say, "Oh, look, you're following in your Dad's footsteps!" Hmph, yeah, but I don't pretend to be Church Lady, do I? I'm making MY OWN footsteps.
I want to start a business that trains child care centers, churches and one day SCHOOLS to help their 'difficult kids'.
- Yes, I will be a female entrepreneur, and I'll be a frickin' good one at that.
I think I might either go to Law School and study Child and Family Law, or get my Master's in Clinical Therapy, a.k.a. helping
little ones and their 'rents.
- Haha, damn straight I want to go to law school, you read that right...
I want to dance at least one more time for a professional sports team, Broadway show, or music video.
- I DID learn a lesson with Luvabulls, but nobody dare say, "Didn't you learn YOUR lesson?" HA! That was one of the hardest
things I did (quitting), and you'd better believe I learned A lesson...
I want a purse dog.
- Get over it :-)
I want everyone to see ME for ME: my love for others; my healthy obsession with Disney World and caramel apples; my sense of humor; my fragileness; my understated awkwardness; my eloquent speaking style (when I choose to engage it!); my love for sleeping in one day a week; my commitment to things and people I adore; my interesting way of being over-committed yet normally being ok with that; my desire to do to good for and love others any and all the time; my obsession with caramel macchiatos and shaken passion iced tea from Starbucks; my pretended hatred for school even though I've realized I don't really mind it; my loooove for gerbera daisies; my love for the girls in my small group!; my allegiance and committment to (and, truly, obsession with) the kids in the Friday HG; my love for presents, really, of any kind; my love for my FAMILY- our sarcasms, our humor, our undying passion and allegiance for one another, our Dad being the #1 leader and protector and Mom being the coolest friend and mediator, and Ryan being brave enough to go to frickin' France for a semeter and SKOOGE! being the most human stuffed animal dog on the face of the planet- and finally, my love for God and the life He's given me; it may be unconventional, unprecedented, typical, and even immature... but I'm grateful and in awe and reverent and humbled that I'd be so blessed...
I want others to know that about me and to know that I pray for that for them.
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